Hello fluctuating weight, you frustrate me.
I couldn't blame it to anyone else though, I've been eating a lot lately, and when I say, A LOT, I do mean A LOT. You see eating is my coping mechanism. and just like what Kat said, it's how people deal with the feeling of emptiness, if noone could fill it in for you, you just have to stick something in that barren, desolated part, just so you'd somehow feel better. And yes, I've only got food to fill in.
Not any guy could fill in that space anyway, I've tried dating different guys, and by different, I mean, they really are different. From guys my age to the age of 25, but I still haven't felt gratification. Maybe I just have to get over my past completely before I could finally start again with another one.
But I ain't on a rush, like what I've told my friends, for the first time in my life, I wasn't looking and rushing to find a guy for me. Seriously. :) I've survived months by just relying on my own means of attaining happiness. and that didn't really include vices, boys, alcohol, and other what-nots. I kept myself busy hanging out with friends, party and bar-hopping was of course crossed out from the the things I did.
Partying was just never my thing, I never really enjoy partying, except for meeting new people. I spent weekends with family and childhood friends, and the bliss I acquire from it was just much more than what I could get from late night gimmicks. It's alcohol free, bonding-conducive, and of course, non-hazardous to my fragile health.
I've been away out of the hospital for months already, except for the days that I have to go on duty. I have not been admitted or confined for 2 months already. ALthough I was diagnosed with Hypersensitivity Type 1 last week, and had to be under steroids medication again, so hello, water retention, and weight gain.
Anyway, those are my recent updates. I still haven't regained my ardor for writing, but I've regained my appetite, and I plan on losing it. :)) HAHA.
Diet starts next week, I promise. :)
I'm 3 kilos/almost 7 lbs away from my target weight. :( boooo! 47kg, Imah work the fats off and get to you.
Tomorrow I shall be jogging with Daddy. :) Made me giddy giddy. :)
I couldn't blame it to anyone else though, I've been eating a lot lately, and when I say, A LOT, I do mean A LOT. You see eating is my coping mechanism. and just like what Kat said, it's how people deal with the feeling of emptiness, if noone could fill it in for you, you just have to stick something in that barren, desolated part, just so you'd somehow feel better. And yes, I've only got food to fill in.
Not any guy could fill in that space anyway, I've tried dating different guys, and by different, I mean, they really are different. From guys my age to the age of 25, but I still haven't felt gratification. Maybe I just have to get over my past completely before I could finally start again with another one.
But I ain't on a rush, like what I've told my friends, for the first time in my life, I wasn't looking and rushing to find a guy for me. Seriously. :) I've survived months by just relying on my own means of attaining happiness. and that didn't really include vices, boys, alcohol, and other what-nots. I kept myself busy hanging out with friends, party and bar-hopping was of course crossed out from the the things I did.
Partying was just never my thing, I never really enjoy partying, except for meeting new people. I spent weekends with family and childhood friends, and the bliss I acquire from it was just much more than what I could get from late night gimmicks. It's alcohol free, bonding-conducive, and of course, non-hazardous to my fragile health.
I've been away out of the hospital for months already, except for the days that I have to go on duty. I have not been admitted or confined for 2 months already. ALthough I was diagnosed with Hypersensitivity Type 1 last week, and had to be under steroids medication again, so hello, water retention, and weight gain.
Anyway, those are my recent updates. I still haven't regained my ardor for writing, but I've regained my appetite, and I plan on losing it. :)) HAHA.
Diet starts next week, I promise. :)
I'm 3 kilos/almost 7 lbs away from my target weight. :( boooo! 47kg, Imah work the fats off and get to you.
Tomorrow I shall be jogging with Daddy. :) Made me giddy giddy. :)
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