indecisiveness. :(

Everything was simpler and easier back when we were still kids. Back when our Id was more dominant than our Ego, and nobody had a problem with it. Now that we're grown up, we suffer not only because of the complexities of the real world but also because of inner conflicts - our altercating Id, Ego and Superego that makes everything even more perplexing. How I wish I was a kid again. *sigh*

The past few days were all about making decisions and my ambivalence that's stopping me to do things that I want to do. I wanted to look for a job already because being a bum and being unproductive at home is making me depressed, but my parents won't let me, instead they bribed me just so I won't end up signing any corporate contract. I've spent almost all of the money they gave me, though. I paid for my gym membership fees, went trigger happy shopping, treated myself to the spa, went food tripping alone, bought more accessories for my macbook (just because i found them cute), went house hopping, and did a lot more than that. Aaand, despite the bribes I've been getting lately, I still want to apply for a TEMPORARY JOB.

But I don't like contracts that would tie me up in their company for months. I don't want my 4 years of torture in UST-College of Nursing be put to waste. I'm gonna be a nurse, I'm gonna be a nurse, oh hell yeah, I'm gonna be a nurse! Because thoughts become things, and hey, I worked really hard for it during the review!

Anyway, I'm getting kind of sleepy already, and all I want to do right now is to close my eyes and pray that I don't spoil my tomorrow. :D